Monday, 1 July 2019

I Promise Not To Write


I wish there was a way to erase all these memories
I wish there was a place where desolate humans
Ignite inextinguishable hope in their lives
I wish there were people who kept it real with you
Not to take you round or make feel you are worthy
to be in their lives

I wish I’d believe everything is within me, within my power
I wish I believed I am made of unconquerable material
I wish I knew where I kept my life’s armour
I wish I knew where I kept the key to the artillery room
Then, and only then, I would rise like the knight I am
To conquer and reclaim what truly belongs to me
I promise not to write how pitiful I have grown
I promise not to write about how bad a man I make
How contemptible an adult I have turned out to be
I promise to live each day with a simple dream
A dream to the best in everything I do
I promise to write about hope, resilience, and happiness

. She Doesn’t Need Me Anymore


1    There are hints of subtle arrogance in her voice
And even when she is not that subtle for a lover
She brazenly says things such as,
‘I haven’t been depending on you all along’

It appears to me that she wants to let me go
Yet she does not have a sufficient reason
She’s moved on, that’s what she’s certain
She just is not certain about her decision to do so

She does not need me, she needs my benevolent heart
She needs me for the simple reason that I chip in
Once in a while to send her money and airtime
So she can talk or visit whoever is important to her

Deep within me I feel she doesn’t even rank me
The disrespect and her quickness to find quarrel
Even in the most trivial of things
She doesn’t need me, because I am nice guy

Tormenting Questions


Where do you take your head
when evidence show
you no longer need it?

where do you discard you heart? 
when it no longer pumps blood
because it is broken beyond repair

where do you seek refuge
when heaven, hell and earth
have unproven unworthy inhabitation?

what do you say when words freeze
immediately they escape your mouth
and your receiver, baffled, wonders
why you don’t say anything intelligible

what do you do with seemingly infinite time
when what abounds saps your energy
leaving you a mass of lethargy?

Black Heaven


Once more, among the many once mores,
The sun has risen as it has been its norm
Since the conception of the world
But you only remember a quarter of century
If you can count days you just drooled and pooped
And giggled at the simplest of things
Before school took away your innocence
How it made you hate your own mother tongue
How it made you despise your culture
Because, somehow, you learned it was backward
Or primitive, as the white man would say

Teachers, agents of the white man’s bullshit
Made you despise your own African religion
Not that you grew with it, but you were told
That somewhere in the course of our history
We worshiped the Asiss, the sun
The god who created Kalenjin in his own image
(If you can borrow the white man’s lingo)
With differing complexions, but still rich with melanin
And we poured libations to the intermediaries
Old who men and women who went before us


The white man, beaming with written evidence
Talked about the Ten Commandments 
Do not steal, he said, and then went and stole our land
Do not kill, he said, and then killed our brothers and sisters
And we, sheepishly believed him and are now fervent supporters
Of the new religion that keeps us in bondage
In poverty, because our riches are in heaven
The white man inherits the earth, which he can  see
And promises us African riches in heaven, a place we cannot see
And even it exists, it was fashioned by a God from abroad
Whose witnessed our oppression without striking them
Who has witnessed racism and said nothing

If anything, I want to go to a black heaven
The heaven we know will be filled with people
Who have had no qualms hating the black man
Enslaving and killing the black man
And yet tells him to be meek and righteous
Legitimize black poverty by robbing us our treasures
Turning brother against brother that he can sell weapons
Yet, he goes to church every Sunday to atone for his sins
For god gave a provision allowing us to sin first
And repent later
A thing that was not African at all
Because we did not believe in heaven

Tuesday, 11 June 2019

Here We Are


      The memories pound my head like rain drops
On a corrugated iron roof
Nourishing the poignant memory of you
A memory that refuses to fade
And in its wake spring million tiny memories
Of us lazing around, doing nothing
Laying naked beside each after making love
A contented look on your face
Yet here were are, throwing away all the memories

I wanted to be a better man for you
I tried to be better, to at least to deserve you
And yet here were are, me back to old bad habits

Saturday, 23 March 2019

What are you without trust?


What are you without trust?
You are like a tree without roots
The leaves may be there
But will wither eventually

What are you without trust?
Even when deep down you’ve changed
It seems to others that you are joking
And it stings if it’s a loved one

The dreams become hazy
A shadow between a billion shadows
And no dream makes sense
You are alone, in abyss full of people
People living their lives to the fullest

When You Were Full Of Dreams


There were days when you dreamt
Beautiful dreams
Of a thousand suns
A vast blue sea
Of stars hanging so close
So close that you would grasp them
Pluck them and hang them like chandeliers
…but those were those days

Now, without concrete dreams
And if you dream it involves dying
The days are cloudy, the stars hide
In cracks in the sky
The moon is mourning
The sun is shy,
It creeps across the sky
Sometimes stealthily, other times it creeps
Behind the shrubs of clouds