I find myself debating with myself,
I have very little money,
And I am trying to find reasons to spend it,
She's asked for some,
Although I wanted her to so I can gleefully tell her I don't have it,
I find no thrill in telling her so,
The fact I'll say it from a point of lack
Robs me that thrill
were I in the proximity of a liquor den,
I'd have had a cheap one
And forgot my existence
for a while
I can't begin to imagine how
it all began
English language was as complex
as nuclear science
My buttocks suffered to my brain
to even begin comprehending
simple English sentence structure
I hated every moment of those lessons
The difference between there and their
sticks to my to date
I have not the same feeling
I felt eons ago,
You sound the same,
bubbly in a way that ticked
the soft spots reserved for you,
I do remember, wearily,
about those little things that irked me
those things I ignored just to be with you,
the things that made you say
I understood you
I did because there was none beside you
I should not have
And, perhaps, that's why you are alone
It's a normal day,
Sun rise signal anodyne chores,
a punishment for daring to live,
we toil in the sun drenched earth,
only to prove why we deserve to live
Except we are looking for things we
know not,
and that makes existence a hellish experience
One morning you'll wake up
as though you've discovered the
secret of life,
What is it, you may ask
Some say it's simple,
But is it?
Yes, it sure is.
As simple as breathing
At first it felt
as though you would make away
with something a little precious,
but then I did confuse it with material things,
but overtime you stole much more
much more precious,
time,
a dream,
I felt bereft when you left
I still think there was a better way
to love
She blocked you everywhere,
Buy you were not aware,
Until she told you
How she wasted herself
You were not thinking of her
Maybe you did, but it was not
sufficient enough for you to worry
and you didn't get in touch
