When you think really deeply, there is
nothing like future. Of course, if you discount Future Fambo, and Future the
rapper. But today, I am incapable of thinking really deeply. I’ll offer a
superficial analysis of my hypothesis on why there is nothing like future.
It dawned on me, and I am quite astounded,
that I am really old. Somewhere along the highway of sweet twenties, I got
waylaid by some aliens who convinced me that growing up stopped at 20+x years.
It could be a nice way to live if you had oil wells pumping under your armpits.
The stench would be bearable to the fairer gender.
20+x years imprints a fatalistic
here-and-now mentality. At this age, the future does not exist. There is
nothing like a month from now. A year from now? We’ll be probably dead after
consuming mercury-laced sugar if not OD.
After Y years have elapsed, the bubble
might burst suddenly or gradually. It can be sudden when you go back to the
village and that small boy who used to ask you stupid questions as young
children are wont, is married with two children. And the wife is probably hot,
too, if round off motherhood to the nearest 18 years.
And the little champ has built a house!! It
might not be that grand per say, but it is his house. He can wake up and
demolish it and no one would give him shit. We would think he is mad though
even if it is his own house, built with his own money. And he probably has an
old rickety motorbike that would give you tetanus or marasmus – whichever comes
first. But damn it! It’s his motorbike, bought with is own sweat and blood.
And then there is you, stuck at 20+x years
with a bunch of diplomas and degrees, and a whacky philosophy about life and
everything that makes it throb. Whacky here means contrary to popular belief,
that is, politics, social, and financial. And religion.
Back to future. It only exists because you
decide not to live now. For instance, you could make a little money and decide
to postpone spending it now. You willfully deny yourself pleasure to spend it
at a later now, which if think closely, will still be now. You will never be
alive in a future, you are only alive now, at this present, and one breath, one
heartbeat, and one second at a time.
But then if you think like this, you will
stagnate and turn murky and greenish like stagnant water.
