Give Me Bread

give me a loaf of bread 

before I drop dead 

so that you can come 

and bestow upon my soul virtues I never had 

say you truly love me 

before we become 'used to be'

and you turn into a philosopher 

waxing cliches 

like you don't know what you have till its gone 

life is a lot like a novel 

lots of plots twists before the shovel 

lots of characters, aiding or derailing the script 

and sometimes the confusion between the real and ideal 

makes life unbearable  

you fall into hard times 

that make you long for those nursery rhymes 

because the meaning of adulthood gets lost

and you wonder why you were 

so much in a hurry to grow up 

they say life is unfair 

because it is supposed to be 

they say diamonds take a beating 

to become the 'it' thing

but you are no diamond and hard is not your portion 

How Do You Begin Again

 I still miss her, in some kind strange way, 

I know we still had so many to say, 

We promised each other so many 

Whatever flowed out of her mouth was honey 

How do you begin again 

When it is just too much pain 

The one you ever truly loved

when you loved in a way you could never have explained? 

I still miss her, a funny feeling now 

And I ask myself, eerily, how? 

What happened? What did not?

In my stomach settles a strange knot.

 

It is strange when you believe you were never meant to part 

There is always that guilty feeling you never played your part 

On some cold nights, you pause all your thoughts and ask why 

And the ever elusive answer leaves you with a weird sigh 

The Man From The Lowlands

 He came from the ranks of men, 

who gradually gravitated towards oblivion

by sheer and willful ignorance. 

He suffers frequent bouts of self-loathe 

on moments he swore he wouldn't ever reach. 

It is the umpteenth time to swear, 

yet on his low moments, 

he will be moved by how much he is doing 

embrace the noose that took his grandfather away 

On the outside he seems like a made-up guy 

But broken into smithereens on the inside 

How he wishes that things were different 

If only he did things differently. 

Rat Race

 If they ever tell you that you will
get to a point, in a sinister manner
a point where your name will be
permanently struck of the register
of those seeking redemption,
yield to temptation. Believe them. 

For heaven's sake, what would
a man actively seeking his destruction,
hope for?
There are only so many things to be grateful
for, yet focus on the same things
that have born nothing but angst,
self-loathe,
self-hate
and when nothing seems to work,
the very man stares at his own bleak existence
the existence that he made
and wishes there was a hand that hoist him
of the hole
that has become a rat race. 

If there ever tell you
that you may amount to nothing
believe them.
In you, they are battling their own existential
struggles
and your failure might make them feel better about
their sorry existence

Silence

 Silence. 

Sometimes you crave it, sometimes you don't 

Sometimes its liberating, sometimes it imprisons 

Silence. 

A lover's nightmare, 

A jilted love's bliss. 

Silence. 

Sometimes it gives hope, 

Sometimes it strangles it, 

You oscillate between hope 

and despair 

Silence is not a dream 

Silence does not obey laws of the stream

It lives on its own terms 

Yet treats and harms

Dancing To A Song of Fools

 tell me any one tale 

full woes quite avoidable 

like Chipchos and his friends...

the have danced around fire 

plenty of times, 

each time getting burns to 

what medical doctors call degrees 

Chipchos seems to decreed to die young

broke and miserable 

for each time he gets burned, 

he goes back again 

because he likes to dance around fire, 

he says anything you love doing is 

worth overdoing, 

his lifelong mantra is that moderation is for cowards 

Truth In The Rain

We stood in unbearable rain 

In the pursuit of truth, 

It did not seem so vain 

As contacting god from telephone booth 

Not knowing drove us insane 

We had an inkling, a slight hint 

a candle on the window vane 

i flicker in the night, a glint 

 

It might not have been 

Truth is, truth hurts 

In the end we may never win 

Either way, we may be broken into parts