Mental Disorder

I have an undiagnosed mental disorder, 

as sinister as it might, I think people 

like me need recognition, 

right from the United Nations 

to the CBOs tucked in the armpits 

of uncivilised natives of Kainuk 

I am telling you, I am mentally ill 

my thought process is as flawed, 

as the next Mathari patient, 

but I am free like a molecule 

and that worries me, it worsens 

my condition 

sometimes I think I am walking 

corpse, 

the next I am more alive and eternal 

like the word of god 

because I am ill 

but my condition is undiagnosed yet 

and that gives me no peace 

at this ungodly hour of the night 

The Wilderness of Life

wander through the vast 

wilderness of life, 

be wary of the compass 

for your desire is to get lost, 

if not, it should be your creed 

for you will find out you true self

in unfamiliar places 

define yourself through strangers 

and find your true purpose 

in our own meaningless existence 

wander through this wilderness 

be wary of those who sing praises 

they do not mean it 

Who Needs?

who needs a hug, 

when a hug, 

can't be frozen 

and stored somewhere, 

somewhere easily retrievable? 

who needs a heart, 

when it can be easily stolen, 

and given to someone else?

who needs a soul when 

you wouldn't ever know 

what to do with it 

or if it even exists? 

who needs to live 

when each we crawl closer, 

unwillingly, 

to our own demise? 

Who needs to ponder all

these, 

when you can live, love and laugh 

the good things 

and the bad things that happen? 

Back Up

I have travelled  way down 

the least desirable road, 

The climb back will be stiff. 

and difficult 

It wasn't the way I wanted 

but I thought it was cute 

now I believe I was stupid 

the regret is 

Wandering Heart

I felt my heart slip away, 

and float, like smoke, 

through the invisible crevices 

and wandered away seeking 

your lukewarm embrace, 

to brood the distance memories 

fan the dying embers back to life, 

to warm us again 

until we can't stand each other. 

as I set here, content without a 

heart, 

I hope it used the correct path 

to find you 

I am aloof, unenchanted by all this 

because the scars are still evident 

yet they aren't scars worth 

celebrating, 

they are invisible scars that never 

fully healed 

A Scarcity Mindset

There is no sure path to sadness 

than the constant nagging thought, 

that you'd be happy every where else 

except where you are 

Tell me what sadder

than the idea that you'd be loved 

better by someone else than 

the person you are currently with 

what leaves you with a sore taste 

more than thinking you deserve better, 

a better job, better house, better family 

your reality seems like a trap 

stop seeing life from a position of scarcity 

it blinds you from all the blessings 

the abundance, happiness and joy 

a scarcity mindset will leave you miserable 

Places You've Never Been

there will be a thousand sceneries, 
breathtaking, picturesque,

some will leave long lasting impressions 

on your mind, 

while plenty will leave you unfulfilled

in the sense that you'll never be 

happy wherever you feet have taken root