Tuesday, 12 January 2021

The Pounding Thoughts

I lay awake at night 

and listen to the clinging thoughts 

clang! clang! 

hammers pounding away 

same intensity as yester year 

and years before that 

and the years after 

cling! clang! 

thoughts pounding away 

chipping away nothing 

just competing with the slow clock 

tik tok!

The sickening slow ebb of time 

nauseates 

A Thousand Years

 wait, 

the last feel of your touch 

has been devoured by maggots 

it's skeletal, 

lonesome

in a grave of oblivion 


wait, 

the last words you spoke 

have frozen

sculptured into a knife 

that cuts my soul into smithereens 

I used to indulge in the pain 

It was a welcome refuge 


wait, 

what are are waiting for?

I am waiting for the sun to freeze this dawn 

once again 

and make a sculpture of all your memory 

a knife of sorts

to cut me all over again 

for I am whole 


Monday, 11 January 2021

The Uncaring Universe

who are we to the big universe?

are we tiny specks of sands

are we giants?

does the universe laugh at our 

exaggerated importance

does it get buoyed by our indifference? sometimes 

Is it patiently waiting to trample us 

into oblivion?


In the meantime, give me a beer 

it is the only way I can become one 

with the universe..

Sunday, 10 January 2021

The Alarm










The walls, silent walls listen 

to the songs of your angst 

the darn walls do not even applaud 

they sit still, not even apprehensive 

that you will breakdown -

the darn walls 


the mosquitoes fly by with sick oblivion 

seeking your blood as they you are their ranch 

and their annoying whir - god their annoying whir 

sickens you to your stomach 

they rob you the little sleep you are bargaining for 

the sleep you've bargained for six hours 


and now dawn is here

the alarm does not raise you -

you raise the alarm 

and the alarm snoozes you 

because you are tired, 

tired of thinking - tired of dawns

that bring nothing but weary dreams 

I Do Not Bother

I do not get it - I do not even want to contemplate

How can someone's life choices offend me?

I go for the superficial - the one you have chosen to show 

The rest is between a secret and darkness 

I do not want to know 


The deep is between you and your gods 

Show me what I need to know 

I will not go for the hidden meaning 

You are not a poem 

or a work of art 

I do not care who you are when you slip 

into the darkness 

It just is not worth my time


Once I Rode Your Kiss










Once, I rode on your kiss 

to lands, I must confess, 

lands of bespoke pleasure 

Just why did I mess?


Once, your smile lit my soul 

and your smile echoed in my head 

long after you were gone 

then, I felt alive - now I am dead 


Once, your steps led you to me 

and mine to you - we often met halfway 

then we indulged in ourselves 

now, there is not much to talk or say 

A Bachelor's Evening

 aromas of freshly cooking meals 

assail the lone man in his crib 

children wail, 

mothers scold errant children 

tired mothers scold their children 

threatening - as a form of affection - 

to thoroughly clobber them 

still usurps the night 

and the bachelor, roused by hunger, 

prepares a shoddy meal 

everything else is still

the world is still 

except the existential worries